Hello. I want to keep my name private, but I'm 18 years old.. Can't even say student anymore, I failed my last class and I have to start it again next year. I don't have any good explanations why.. I understand that I need the grade and have spent 11 years learning and then in last i did such a shit. Anyways, thats not the big issue in my life. In general, my life is okay, I'm living pretty decet life, have everything I want etc., but I don't know why im doing such shit in my life. My past year have been really really bad. One of my issues is that I have lost one really close friend. Reason? shit talking. I've been promising things, saying that I will start this and that but in the end I just stop doing it in the middle. I don't know why, but I cannot complete things. So I said him lot of shit and he just stopped trusting me and my words. thats the biggest issue. people start to not believe things im saying and it really annoys me because its not that i mean it, its just how i am. I want to be successeful in life and have big plans, but everything is going down and down. My dad have lot of cash, but past 3 years I have received 0 from him. I think its good, I'm living on my own and learn lot of things but if I can be true it's a little illegal thing I am doing. Totally have withdrew about 100k EUROS from it in the past 3 years if not more. And what I have from this money? NOTHING. I spend it on party and my bad habits. Idk what's wrong with me but everytime I start something i cannot complete it. The same is with business and other things I try to start. Whats your opinion guys, what should I change? I have huge depression - The worst kind of sad is not being able to explain why. This perfectly describes my issue...
ITS time to change, I wanna get better.
ITS time to change, I wanna get better.